How are up there? Are you bathing in dust darling? No one had touched you i know, and i also know how much you crave for life.
D, you were there last year with my two bestfriend. You were a lust no one could resist and you were with us.
Sweet as a honey your words opened up our mind
you seduced us children of heaven with your graceful apperience
oh how dare you
how dare we too?
D, you must know that i thought of loving you once more, embracing your sweet hug, your warmness on my lips. I thought of you as a medium of memory, i thought of using you as an anniversary toy i could play around when im alone. I thought to welcome you D, to bring you with me today as a present for myself for the coming year, as we did last year. I thought of you as a prove that i was alive and happy last year.
No D, im not trying to sound bitchy and naughty and sounding decades older than i really am, im just me as you know and all i want is to hold every single prove of life i left behind. When i thought of you, i must say, i dare an affair thinking about the two angels i spent last year's eve with. Well, obviously they are my reason.
Im feeling like living a dream
im feeling so surreal
i want to live D
I want to see that im alive
now and the last decades, see if im not worth the deaths im planning
D, i miss my friends
D, you know it better
D, i want you
D, i forget you at home and im cursing thousand words for my stupidity
And see D, im stupid for believing in you
but im not stupid thinking of my bestfriends
This year has end, but my memories will last the eternity
arinda










